Fear

Fear is the memory of danger. It serves a purpose, often keeping us out of danger like not touching a red hot stove top, but in many ways it’s a dinosaur. The fight or flight response of fear is a hangover from ancient times when people had to avoid flying spears and hungry mammoths. It ... Continue Reading »

Just a few words, enough to make me sick. A few ugly words, so wrong “What?” I ask, now she has to say it again. Now I hear it twice, making it worse. “My legs are fat” She says, Twice. Just like that. FAT That word, in her mouth about her self ugly and bitter ... Continue Reading »

He’s waiting for me in the car. The engine’s running. Mirrors adjusted, seat pushed back. It’s his turn. I’m his passenger His teacher, guide, His mother and, control freak. This will be interesting We all know that’s the wrong word. But It will do for now. I breathe heavily as he reverses into the busy ... Continue Reading »

Unsure feet walking wobbly steps toward an imagined goal. Balancing all the weight and consequences of every decision while juggling all manner of odd shaped problems and demands. In order to avoid an horrific death, each step is first debated then carefully implemented. Possible failure, complete disaster and inevitable therapy all hold their breath waiting ... Continue Reading »

Clutching the toddler’s hand at a busy road I notice another mother does not. Her child a little older than mine walking happily ahead. I cannot imagine ever letting go of his hand in that very place. Allowing him to run on ahead, fearing the worst and always worrying. Yet, later I stand at the ... Continue Reading »

“There is nothing you can do about it,” He tells me, as if that is going to make me feel any better. I’m now taking huge deep breaths and focusing on puppies and rainbows. I never had a fear of flying until my children were born, then all of a sudden at take-off, all I ... Continue Reading »

I’ve avoided all gyms at all costs. Oh I’ve seen the people that walk out of those places, all muscular and well proportioned (except for some freakish guys who just don’t know when to call it a day) And then there are the cute little outfits, tops that don’t cover the essential areas (ah, jelly-belly) ... Continue Reading »

I’m not one to get hysterical, buy into drama (unless I happen to be starring in it!) and nor do I watch endless hours of End-of-Times, they’re-coming-to-get-us news stories. But what I am about to tell you may change your life forever. Bed bugs thrive in warm environments. - There, now go tell all those you ... Continue Reading »

Once spoken so clearly in a language we all understood. Yes. It was that simple. Now I’m not so sure of what to do. Move closer, step back or just smile, from way over there. Sometimes the gap’s so big that I could fall right in not knowing what to grab. Them? I needed that ... Continue Reading »