Surrender

October 11th, 2010

There is nothing I can do.
But watch.
My wanting it to change, my arguing with it,
Pleading for one more day, pointless.

The leaves fall, the wind changes,
The temperatures drop. The geese fly.
My mind calling it the enemy.

I prefer,
Cloudless skies, sprinklers, and bare feet
Nights on the deck in the company of birds, laughter
and a bottle or two.
Sand toys, beach chairs and long stretched out days.
Please stay.

My preferences go unheard.
“Shh” she says, busily moving on.
I must add another layer, turn on lights, find my slippers.
My wanting doesn’t matter.
I can want all I want.
The leaves still fall.
The birds still leave.

And it is right now, at this time
that I know how small I am.
I learn my place.
And my place is here,
Where the seasons teach me
about letting go.

So I do. Let go.
Eventually, after a fight.
The snow will come and the earth will rest.
She will take this time to be still, holding my hand.
And then quietly, finally,
I surrender to the perfect rhythms
of life.

Copyright (C) 2010 By Meg Lawton. All Rights Reserved.

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  1. Jeanne Maxon says:

    perfect…..moving into the retirement “season” of my life…..mourning the rain taking the leaves down outside my window this morning…..surrendering and feeling the difficult rightness of it all……

  2. meg says:

    Yes Jeanne, transitions are hard.  Letting go is hard and moving on is hard……and yes, it is all as it should be.
    …….and here is the perfect quote from Eckhart Tolle:
    “The pain you create now is always some form of nonaccceptance, some form of unconscious resistance to what is…Always say ‘yes’ to the present moment. What could be more futile, more insane, …than to create inner resistance to something that already is…”

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    Your poetry is absolutely beautiful!

    Peace

    @NicSpencer

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  9. Margaret says:

    As ever, written with truth and beauty Meg. You are a star in the life of all of us who read your wisdom.

  10. Ellie says:

    The colorful falling leaves and the chilly night air are signals to pull in, relax, rest- to enter a time of quiet introspection. The earth rests, so must we.  Savor the comfort of  this changing season.  The same is true of the greening of Spring and it’s bursting blossoms- a time of renewal – awake, dance, celebrate new life!  Nature is our mentor.