You speak in whispers one day, and scream the next.
Why be so erratic?
Until I realize, ahhhh yes -
I hadn’t learnt that lesson.
So go on talk loudly in my ear,
yell if you must.
I’m a slow learner of things like
letting go and trust.
Mostly I just don’t know anything,
other than you,
For there you are, so confident and bold.
giving and taking,
changing and shifting like you own this place.
And you know,
I do curse you on those taking days,
leaving me cold and unbelieving.
Telling me to just go rest a while,
while you take control of more important things,
like turning down lights and
tucking seeds into bed.
Ofcourse I fight you, you know I do.
Until my grip loosens
and I simply give in
to your bossy nature once again.
You eventually shake me
with a childish mischief.
Wake up, watch this!
And there you are,
pushing buds out of dead sticks.
and bringing birds back to visit.
You grab the day with both hands
stretching it a little farther
beyond yesterday’s light.
Look at me, you boast,
and yes, I do.
How can I not?
I watch, I listen
and believe once again,
that there is no such thing as forever.
For whatever is now
will change tomorrow.
I thought for a moment
I had it all figured out,
when really all I had
was just a handful of perhapses
struggling to escape my determined clutches.
You with your hands dirty
from springtime planting
come along and throw snow balls when
I have made quite different plans.
Don’t take it all so seriously you smile,
poking me with those green shoots of promise.
It’ll all be ok you say, waving hope in front of my face
while flinging trust across a blue inked sky.
I ask you to forgive me
in a mumbled voice,
for forgetting what I already knew.
You tell me it’s really ok
and to stand up straight and speak clearly
of what I’ve learned this day.
Then grabbing my hand you pull me along.
Dance you say, for this is it
-this is what I made it for!
So I do.
I dance with you through the cold nights
and the melting snow.
I dance through the curtains of dawn
to the rhythm of this day.
I dance until I collapse right on top of you
puffing, panting and out of breath.
And with my ear pressed hard to the earth
I hear your heart pound,
knowing right then in that moment
we are indeed both one.