I have a husband, and kids. A house, debt a pet chinchilla and a dog that is too cute for it’s own good. I have long friendships, caring parents, and a pantry full of food. I have vacations, clothing and an education.
I have the seasons, the daylight and sleep. I have the here and now and the possibility of tomorrow. I have gardens and oceans. I have every colour and every sound in all the earth. I can reach for the horizon or just put one foot forward.
I have fear and pain both deep and frightening. Doubt that freezes me in place, and bad circulation. I have control issues, environmental issues, and parenting issues. I have anger, am irritated and skeptical. I have grief, loss and pits full of loneliness.
I have complete clarity, and utter disbelief. I have the freedom to question and the safety to just be. I have the luxury to explore, myself. I have nowhere to be and everywhere to go. I have space to run and shadows to hide in.
I have snow storms and hospital visits. Tulips that refuse to bud. I have misunderstandings, lost keys and skinned knees. I have barking dogs and forgotten moments just out of reach.
I have a child on my lap, and under foot. I have laugh lines and worry lines and long boring grocery lines. Dirt under my fingernails and silver painted toenails. I have grey hair and skinny jeans that I probably shouldn’t wear.
I have laughter that cannot be stopped and tears that surprise me. I have children to teach me and a partner to believe in me. I have hot tea, conversations, and Sunday afternoons. I have dreams that just won’t let go and squirrels at my bird feeder.
I have missed opportunities and made up dramas. The songs of birds I too easily tune out. I have my own inner world and too much housework. I have soft landings, harsh realities and old worn out ugg boots.
I have acceptance, I have peace, I have passion.
I have love.
I have my breath.
But I have so much more than all of this. These big clumsy words bulky and awkward, cannot possibly explain just how much I have.
For it is true, I have more than enough.
I have it all.