Lately I have been thinking about mistakes I have made as I have journeyed through my beautiful life. I have caught myself feeling a sense of sadness as I look back from the vantage point of the person that I am today, knowing that the person I am today would have been able to do things differently. I have been caught in the web of being hard on myself and have realized that I am in need of some additional self-forgiveness.
For a great deal of time in my life I was afraid to make mistakes. I had this ideal in my head of perfectionism and finding a way to always succeed and always get things right. This was obviously an impossible standard that limited my life, my willingness to try new things, and my possibilities for success. I found myself stuck in situations that did not enrich my life and remained in situations that depleted me. As I grew in my awareness of this fear of failing, I pushed myself to take more risks and slowly but surely realized that mistakes were not to be feared at all.
Mistakes are interesting to look back upon. They are a necessary component of our lives that allow us to grow in wisdom, expand our hearts, and aspire to be better. They are unavoidable and happen even when we are well intentioned and living in our highest person. When we look back at them, we are looking through our higher evolved eyes, from a place that was not accessible to us before. Yes, we may be able to handle a situation differently now, but could we have back then?
Even though the person I am today may have been able to handle past situations differently and more effectively, I would not be the person I am today without having made those mistakes. They were necessary building blocks toward my becoming the me of today and my ability to evolve. In knowing I did my best and was living in my highest self available to me at the time, I am able to move forward, forgiving me and letting go. I have learned and I have grown. I will continue to live in my highest self and I will also continue to make mistakes.
Jennifer’s book, Excerpts from the Heart of a Mom. was released in 2012. Read more and purchase here.