Am I writing this to make you feel negative, corrupt, tarnished!? If you are like most of us, you can do that pretty darn well on your own (gosh, I am full of the bad news, huh?). So, no, no… I am here to support you in your dirtiness with the intent of getting you to think about not thinking.
Let’s back up for a moment. I hadn’t heard the phrase “dirty mind” in sooo long and there it was… dished out on public radio. Made me think about the wonderful way I used these words when I was a kid. It was a taunt-worthy, melodic statement said with judging disgust to little boys with nasty and impure intentions – ha. Nose crinkling was also a necessary part of this delivery.
As an adult who has been uber conscious of her thoughts for 12 intensely challenging and satisfying years, having a dirty mind now conveys images of a brain littered with jumbled thought and energy. Maybe not as fun as the old version but definitely more deep.
Take this moment to honestly evaluate. Are your days/mind pretty crammed with details about work, errands, expectations, chores and duties? Then, what about past events or longings that are still alive-and-well in your head: hurt feelings with your spouse from last week, contemplating how your life would be different “if…”, how upset you are that you ate those three Dunkin Donuts yesterday after your workout?!? Oooo, now things are getting messy. All of this thought compounds like trash in a compactor to create a mind that is haplessly influencing our true reality and driving us to do many things we really don’t even want to do. Like gerbils on an endless wheel – not even lucky enough to be driving a Kai.
This makes for a life that passes by so very, very quickly. One without true acknowledgment or pause… creating an existence of drive and disconnection. This disconnection fuels an underlying sense of sadness that many in our world are dealing with right now. It’s like living a “big, whirling blah.”
Let me express this with all of my clarity in tact and in devout seriousness. Every one of us is unique beyond bounds. Sitting and resting without taking on your mind can feel like another task, and yes, not going to sugar coat it, it can be the hardest thing you attempt to do. But, if you take the time… to stop… to sit… the more your life will flow with grace, ease, purpose, creativity, laughter and beauty regardless of the challenges/tasks that face you.
If you could start by simply setting aside five minutes a day with the intention of doing nothing but being with yourself. Sitting with whatever comes. Resisting the urge to get up or to react to a thought or emotion. To just see yourself as this crazy, wonderfully messy, fabulous, flawed human being put on this earth simply to be a part of it and discover whom you truly are. That’s all (ok, yes, I know, that is actually A LOT!). Just forget about those damn donuts!
But, but – start with five and see if it can grow. Your brain can be like a militant ruler – sometimes you gotta over throw it. Give it some room to expand and rest. And, you may soon discover that those five minutes are the most worthwhile, liberating and exciting time of your day.
Eden Kozlowski’s passion is to move people into the authenticness of their being and help them take full responsibility for their lives and health. She is founder/CEO of her dynamic meditation/mindfulness-based company out of Akron, Ohio USA – Just Be, LLC as well as Co-Editor on the meditation page at All Things Healing. Visit her website at justbemeditation.com, on Facebook at www.facebook.com/JustBeMeditation or on Twitter at twitter.com/JustBeMeditate.